21 September 2006

to 'normal' people~

I have a few things to clarify since you don't seem to be too quick on the uptake.

*I will not temper my mind so you can understand.

*I will not sit by calmly as you label me disordered or deficient.
How do you presume to label something you don't understand? You have labeled a huge part of me as negative and as a child I believed you. I looked at myself and thought that I must have been made wrong; now I know that I was just made different.

*I refuse to be labeled such and then congratulated for overcoming such difficult obstacles or for beating such bad odds.
Yes, certain things were more difficult for me to learn than they were for you. Sure, I didn't learn to read proficiently until mid-elementary school, but that does not mean that I'm slow or deficient; I just learn language differently, no, I learn everything differently than you do. Traditional school was hard for me, but the things that you call my deficiencies and disorders are the things that give me my natural gifts as well. So, they are not just obstacles but also stepping stones, not just curses but also blessings. I would not trade them for anything. They give me my intuition, creativity, alertness, holistic understanding (especially with languages), and most of my most treasured attributes.

However, these are the attributes that you do not get, because you can't even fathom the way my mind works, how it is wired. Which brings me back to my first point:

*I will not temper my mind so you can understand, because you won't.

1 comment:

Thirdmango said...

I feel the same way when it comes to tying things. My mind can't fathom the concepts of tying. I learned how to tie shoes for the first time in 3rd grade, but only the bunny ears in a knot, the whole through the tree what not, no idea how it's done.